Friday, August 1, 2008

You turn 30! Then tell me about it!

I was so excited. I thought - yay! A new decade! A new time of my life! I'm a grown up! This is great!

Hmmm. A week a way I am having some cold feet about turning 30. I know it is fine. I also know it is self and societal pressures that make me feel like I do. But it is little things. Elasticity in skin. Anti-wrinkle creams. Increased calcium. Things I really should have focused on since I turned like 27. Not married. No house. No kids. No MA degree - I will be like 32!! or 33!

And it IS okay, but it probably won't feel it for a little bit. And no, if you are not turning 30 or in your early 30s your opinion is not really counting. If you are like 23 you don't really get it. If you are like 35 you TOTALLY get that 30 is not bad and that good things happen and we come more into ourselves etc. That's why your positive opinions are not being invited into my mild freak out. :) Let me be irrational, but as of like August 15 you can totally chime in!

1 week and 3 hours and 22 minutes and it officially happens.

The party awaits. So does the future.

1 comment:

cupcakekid said...

I know I don't understand, and most would say my opinion doesn't matter, but I do have something to say. You seriously look like a 20 year old. :) Age is nothing more than a mathematical way of mapping out the body's milestones in physical and mental growth. Obviously you are no different than you were a month ago, except that today you are wiser, more experienced, and further developed.

When I look back at the times I had as a child, I realize that things have changed for the better. I still have a long way to go, and I am certain that I couldn't begin to associate myself with what you are going through right now, but with all those things aside, you are still smart, young, and have a family that cares about and supports you 110%. Now thats a comforting thought, wouldn't you say?

I love you heather, and I wish you a wonderful 30th.

Your cousin, Tyler

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