I was so excited. I thought - yay! A new decade! A new time of my life! I'm a grown up! This is great!
Hmmm. A week a way I am having some cold feet about turning 30. I know it is fine. I also know it is self and societal pressures that make me feel like I do. But it is little things. Elasticity in skin. Anti-wrinkle creams. Increased calcium. Things I really should have focused on since I turned like 27. Not married. No house. No kids. No MA degree - I will be like 32!! or 33!
And it IS okay, but it probably won't feel it for a little bit. And no, if you are not turning 30 or in your early 30s your opinion is not really counting. If you are like 23 you don't really get it. If you are like 35 you TOTALLY get that 30 is not bad and that good things happen and we come more into ourselves etc. That's why your positive opinions are not being invited into my mild freak out. :) Let me be irrational, but as of like August 15 you can totally chime in!
1 week and 3 hours and 22 minutes and it officially happens.
The party awaits. So does the future.
6 months ago