I have no motivation and not enough time to entertain such a state.
How does one become motivated to do things that they have no interest in? Like study.
When did I stop loving this?
No, that's not true. I do love it. I am just unhappy with not feeling settled. I liked it when I felt that MFT was my fit. Or close to it. It was a (hard and pricey) means to an end. Now? It doesn't feel like enough.
I meet with my adviser tomorrow. I am afraid of the GFU staff now though - I am afraid to say that I have doubts because I don't want to be told to take time off school and figure it out. Because that isn't necessary. I have always wanted the same thing. Always. It's just the right avenue for it feels foggy.
Now I'll go read about Suicide and treatment. Oh the cheeriness of graduate school.
10 months ago