I have no motivation and not enough time to entertain such a state.
How does one become motivated to do things that they have no interest in? Like study.
When did I stop loving this?
No, that's not true. I do love it. I am just unhappy with not feeling settled. I liked it when I felt that MFT was my fit. Or close to it. It was a (hard and pricey) means to an end. Now? It doesn't feel like enough.
I meet with my adviser tomorrow. I am afraid of the GFU staff now though - I am afraid to say that I have doubts because I don't want to be told to take time off school and figure it out. Because that isn't necessary. I have always wanted the same thing. Always. It's just the right avenue for it feels foggy.
Now I'll go read about Suicide and treatment. Oh the cheeriness of graduate school.
6 months ago